Grave digger!

Where do I begin to express how I am feeling right now! My heart hurts so badly. Is this karma? If it is then it’s nothing any off you can imagine. Let’s see, okay! Turn of events… because I am a reserved personality individual, I do not always convey my emotions well. What I am going through or have experienced doesn’t really show on me. Take my appearance for example; I still think my look & physical doesn’t tell you 30yrs old!
I hate this world!!! MONEY really controls our lives… When I had a steady income all is fine! As soon as my income stopped flowing momentarily is where it all started. I lose myself! I really feel the pressure of being the only child. Nothing seems to go right, nobody will understand. Not even people which claim they love you. Maybe it’s my ego, maybe not… should I be proud to tell people that I am broke and is really struggling day by day! Who would care? In the society nowadays, whenever you step foot outside your home, you would be required to spend money.
Maybe it is very hard for people to understand why suddenly I am always hibernating at home. It’s not the fact I am anti-social, I enjoy going out! It hurts me even to reject an invitation out! Who doesn’t like to hang-out with your love ones?
Come on! If you haven’t been poor in your life you would never know how insecure the feeling is! Being a person with integrity I try hard not to borrow any $$$ from my dear friends.
Through the journey of life with a loved person, I hope that at times you will look back at what I have done for you. I always wish the best for you. When money wasn’t an issue, I did do everything just to make you love me more! A few things also, you were the 1st one in my life which I have never done for anyone before. I’m proud to say that I love you. What I am not proud of is always having the feeling of indifferences. The thought of our families of different background and status, scares me. All I said to you is you will never understand! However it’s my pride which doesn’t allow me to explain and try to make you understand where I stand and how I feel.
This is where my mistake began. Because I was not ready to explain why I wasn’t willing to come to you. However I try… with little steps, I try to warm up to you and your family. Circumstances and situation doesn’t allow me to continue so… When I was questioned why I stopped!!! I again did not explain myself, how foolish of me!
Our misunderstanding grew larger and our relationship gap grew wider!!!
This reached a point where we care less of each other. Here is where the hurt began and we turn to our busy lives to try not to think or handle it!
Both are defeated… a once beautiful story and the envy of many has turn into my greatest lesson in life.

THE END

Bali Trip Day 2:

Woke up at 3am in the morning to see sun rise and dolphin.. (: and it took us 2hours plus to reach our journey so i slept along the journey..Seriously, no regrets for waking up so early! Beautiful sun rise and dolphin..

can you spot the dolphin? :P

Walked to nearby resort to have our breakfast. :)

Next, we went to the Volcano area for buffet lunch eating local food. I didnt have the mood to eat thanks to the ulcer on my tongue.. :'( The place is so windy and cooling. It reminds me of Genting.. LOL~

Musang

Coffee (:

After that, we went to the visit their agriculture and try the world most expensive coffee, Coffee Luwak. It is actually some shit from an animal. They called it 'Musang'.. If you ever drink that coffee before and you are a coffee lover, you will know the difference. :)




Visited some temple also and it was packed with people and the guy told us they were all preparing for their raya on the next day. So nice that we get to see them praying and wash themself in the 'fountain' for some blessing. but too bad, we didnt get to try!

Headed to paddy field after that. It was beautiful. You can see layers of paddy from the picture above. Isn't it pretty?? :)




And of cause, we went to Tanahlot for shopping and sunset as well.. :) By the way, most of the souvenirs were bought from there.. Heehee..



And of cause lastly, Jimbaran for dinner by the beach.. Good experience as we dont get to have dinner by the beach in M'sia and the food was great! BBQ mixed seafood.. Yummy~~

That's all for Day 2.. :) Day 3 post, Genting and Malacca post will be uploaded as well.. Stay Tune!! =D

Xoxo

*CHAK* I'm finally back blogging! (: and I'm gonna blog about my Bali Trip day 1. Yes, i know i was suppose to blog last month but i was too busy enjoying my life and i'm lazy to blog. =P By the way, this post is gonna be 'picture's tells it all'

Bali is such a beautiful island.. love it so much.. plan to go with my hubby boy next time! (:

Hello Bali!! :)

When we arrive Bali, it was half day gone. =/ checked-in to our Hotel, Holiday Villa and off we walk to Kuta Beach and Kuta town for shopping. Yes, we walked, because my hotel is just opposite Kuta Beach. How nice right? but we only spend first day evening at Kuta beach to see the sunset. I will let you all know in the next post..

Beautiful Sunset! ♥

I Promise i will update the remaining day as soon as possible.. :) Xoxo

Ps: How come my font size and font changes?? =/

Super short update here.. (:

Say Hello to my JacK boy! (= He is so handsome! *wink* Brought him for grooming the other day with my babe. Of course i bought him new shirt and new shampoo.. He is feeling handsome now.. haha~!



That's all for now.. Finals is next week! Wish me luck! (: Xoxo

I'm finally 20 now! (: Birthday celebration was a simple yet fun and enjoying.. After my class, hubby boy bring me to Bangsar to get me my brithday pressie.. (: Birthday present will be reveal later in this post. (:

We went for premier class movie @ the gardens after that. Watched KungFu Panda 2.. (: Finally, i get to watch it. It was our first time watching premier class. The seats are comfortable and the service is much better than the normal one.. haha.. KungFu Panda 2 is such a nice movie.. love it.. so touching and meaningful.. (:

After the movie, we went to Puchong Neway to meet up with others.. (: Surprisingly, the traffic was considered good, so we were the first who reach there.. -.-" We check-in the room first then we went to take our food to eat! (: Its was buffet dinner, the food was okay but well, it is more than enough to make all of us full.. You Wei and Vincent keep on taking food up for us to eat until some of the food were wasted. LOL~

While we were singing, suddenly, the music stop and wai keat and jasmine were holding the control, so all of us looked at them and they raise up their hand and say "no, its not me!" hahah~ so funny, and then, i saw a cake and the screen changed to birthday song.. aww~ thank you all.. (:






Though it wasnt really a big celebration, i was happy enough to have you all to celebrate it with me. It was my first time celebrating my birthday in karaoke with friends. Spent wonderful time with all of you. Big thank you to my babes who attended, it means a lot to me.. (: Also, thank you all who wished me through phones, messages, talkbox, face-to-face and also facebook!


Thank you hubby boy for buying me this Dior shades! Love it so much and also thank you for being with me the whole day although you didnt really wana go for the karaoke, but still you make it for me! (: I love you! ♥

DKNY be delicious Perfume. (:

Juicy Couture bracelet :)

Once again, thank you, thank you and thank you! =D

Will update soon, Xoxo